Why I am not giving anything up for Lent
Giving up or taking something on for Lent has been part of my faith life since I was a teenager. This year I have decided that I am not going to do that.
I am not giving anything up because there has been much that has already left my life.
A little background for those who don’t know the story is probably helpful at this point. I am married to a wonderful man who also happens to be an Anglican priest. In June 2010 he was put on medical leave for an ongoing depression by our bishop. It was and continues to be hard for us. After 24 years of going to church, being part of a parish, providing leadership this was all taken away from him and then eventually from me. It quickly became clear that I was not welcome to be part of our parish anymore. That I was a reminder of things that had gone dreadfully wrong – for my husband, for the parish leadership and mostly for our family. So I have lost a community and at this point do not have another one.
I have decided that this Lent I will sit with my grief and look for hope. I will pay attention to the small joys and not look for anything big to happen. I will continue to nurture those that I can. I will give thanks for my online community who have been a rock through this time.
I will walk through the desert time.